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Sunday, April 27, 2008

So Mtv's Real World is an awesome show. Its not what you would expect out of an MTV feature (trashy, scripted shows : Tila Tequila) It just shows you raw emtions that i love.

Spring quarter has been amazing so far. it's opened me up to so many new experiences and so many new kinds of people and i'm learning alot about myself and how i've come to be myself. Despite the fact that relationships with the people on my floor has stalled and i lost respect and relatability with many of them, I'm not sad in the sense that i know i'll meet more great people that i'll be friends with for the rest of my life. Those are the kinds of relationships that really matter and makes you who you are.
And though I know I'm not perfect, I can't excuse some of my abrasiveness that comes off very negative to many people. I've felt like i just need to take a step back and listen more.

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 4:28 AM


Saturday, April 26, 2008

My mum's quote:

"Not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck"

In response to my previous post, i think this is the right way to look at it.

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 8:06 AM


Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Bad Tidings

I got rejected from Exercise Science. Not my finest hour right now and I'm upset considering how I've planned this for more than a year and built my whole career aspirations around it. To know that I keep getting rejected from things (UW, Fiji and Exercise Science) continually fustrates me and sometimes this doesn't do good for esteem. But right now i'm (trying to) remain optimistic. I mean i got rejected from UW and got into OSU, i got rejected by the Fijis but got into t
the delts. So i guess i should keep trying. This by no means that i settle for my second choices, but rather, it taught me that there are better things out there that i can get involved with. Still i'm pretty bum with this whole situation (i threw the letter away)

I'm at this kind of crossroad where i seriously doubt my career choice. Does becomnig a researcher and scientist really appeal to me? No. Its something that appealed to my parents and i sorta of saw but i really don't feel like i can be completely happy with this career choice. I don't know what else i can major at at this point when i'm so near 
graduation. I guess its just something i really have to contemplate and figure out.
Any suggestions guys?

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 5:59 AM


Sunday, April 20, 2008
Friends ForeveR?

I've bid farewell to those lonesome nights, sad melodramatic music and mopiness. At least for now. 
This quarter has been extremely different. The weathers different. My Social Life is different. People are different. I've no longer felt stuck and enveloped by the hall of people i've associated with. But now have spread myself to better and bigger things in life. I'm currently pledging a fraternity which has greatly improved my social life including my social weekends! haha. Its bound to produce some timeless stories (and it already has) and i really enjoy the new friendships being formed. As for the old ones? You treasure the ones you respect, and release the ones you don't. Thats how life is right? Lifelnog friendships are the process of a lifetime of weeding and extracting and the ones that make it out of this cruel, sadistic filtration process are the ones you know you can hold dear and true. Be glad to know that at least some of you have made it pass the pores of murky water so far (at east i'm relieved to know there are at least some).
Friendship get complicated sometimes. Its definition is broad and vague and means different thigns to so many different people. Does friendship include the people you live with and associate with? Does it include the people you hang out with eventhough you have lost a little bit of respect for them? Or does it purely segragate in favor of those you call your close friends. To a floater, it means the people who care about you and you know will be lifelong friends and buddies. All others, with deplorable personalities, don't really mean anything anymore. You hang out with them for the sake of hanging out and perhaps so we aren't so lonely in life. That's how life goes rite? I mean, we get so afraid of loneliness, we'd cling onto anyone who 
resembles a friend. Until one day, when maybe that specila person enters your life and everything changes. I hope to be a hopeless romantic and wish that things like that do come true. In the meantime, i wait it out and resist the waves and bumps that continues to trhust onwards and onwards onto our shores.
Until then, i hope to keep discovering things about people and make lifelong and true friendships and i can treasure and share with for the remainder of my life.

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 1:43 PM


Sunday, April 13, 2008

So things have been interesting and different lately. I would not have thought this is how spring quarter was going to go honestly.. I'm in a fraternity, i'm partying hard every weekend and i'm meeting so many new people. It is great really, but its abit sad that relationships with the old ones aren't as good as they were. I mean me and geoff harrdly ever hang out anymore and i don't hang out with the girls as much anymore. Its almost like I'm at some kind of cross road where i have to choose my future and my life.
Choose old friends or new friends. Well wat i can safely say is this is no new thing for me, i've always evaluated friendship on its longivity, and I really care only about those that mean something special to me. I mean look at all my high school friends, i don't talk to any of them except for april and von basically. INTI peeps, i also still chat with the gang and i dun bother with all the other guys from AUP and stuff...and just like that i feel ike im weeding out those that i don't really care about. I've realized last quarter how many people i kind of dislike because of their personality, and i'm not going to hate them or anything but im not gonna put as much effort into the relationship anymore. Thats how i see things i guess... right or wrong... i have no idea but  it gives me an idea who my true friends are.
Choose your career. I recently started having heavy doubts as microbiology as a career path. Espically research. it just doesnt appeal to me as it did after actaully going through the process. I just don't know what to do with my life anymore i would love being a philosopher but i know its not a path my parents woud necessarily support. I really do hope that i get accepted into exercise science eventhough i feel like i won't contribute as much to society if i did went down that path but it would be something that i would enjoy alot more.
It seems like i've embraced abit of the american culture and have become abit more self-aware and desirious of things for myself. Don't worry guys, i'm really not that much different then i was, just aliitle more outspoken with the things that i think.
Hopefully, things will work out well. I hope for the best.

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 5:38 AM


Wednesday, April 09, 2008




Its time for another humoungously long post to catch everyone up again. Yea i know i do this but life in college is just kinda busy, and i do mean busy


So spring quarter so far has been really awesome. But even before i start mentioning about that, i spent spring break over at new york... and that was pretty tight and i do definitely miss the big city and living in one. Props to nick for showing me a good time. 
So spring quarter has begun, the flowers are starting to grow, the weather is warm (finally!) and 
basically everyone is out on the oval enjoying themselves, wearing near to nothing and engaging in their invididual tom-foolory. But i've decided to kill my leisure time by being as busy as possible.
1) I'm taking 3 courses, 2 science, 1 writing... Microbiology 581 has perhaps scared me that i couldn't imagine working in the field of science. I mean, with all the transcription factors, and rna complexes, it drives you absolutely insane and i have no idea how i'm going to keep all this up till my graduation. Philosophy 367 has been thoroughly enjoyable (thanks to our extremely dorky but funny professor) and has reconfirmed by love to the field of rationalism and i would definitely lvoe to major in it if i fail to get into exercise science (results out in a few weeks!)
But yea, academic life... not so much fun right now
2) "Work... work..... work" qouting our favorite grunt from Warcraft... I'm putting down my Office Assitant position by taking needless shifts. Its stupidity on my part for working 1-4am on two occasions, esp since i have to wake up at 8am the next day on both ocassions. Work sucks... but its pay....something that i desperately need
3) Research position, i now work under Dr. Culver and his research on limonology. Not excatly the most riveting topic to me but its somewhere that i can get started. Thus far, its been microscope work and i really have no clue about the kinds of projects that is going on and the work that i would possibly have to do. Somehow i always dread going there maybe because i feel so awkward around the current staff. I feel like a battered ram stepping into a cage on starved ram-desiring North Korean street urchins. Hopefully it will get better, but it does mean i have to dedicate around 4-6 hours of lab work a week.
4) Fraternity! Yup i got my bid so i am officially in the kappa pledge class of the beta phi chapter of the DTD fraternity! I'm so glad i got in and i hope things turn out well. So far its been great and i've had awesome parties so there is my social life basically.

So basically, i've hardly had time to just chill out and have fun (not true, i spent 2 hours playing frisbee on the oval) but you get what i mean. Its been a really eye-opening, revealing quarter so far and i'm discovering alot of things about myself that i really should have found out in high school and i'm discovering alot about people, relationships (others) and the nature of life.

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 10:46 AM


Saturday, April 05, 2008

So Im now a Pledge of Delta Tau Delta.

sweet!

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 11:06 PM