I feel strangely down today.... and i'm not even sure why

I'm thinking Freudian's subconcious mess or lack of edibles and goodies
ITs not a good sign....

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 10:55 PM

Dear readers.

yesterday for the first time, i had serious comtemplation over suicide. It was also the first time i noticed sharp pains in my chest and bouts of difficult breathes.
I guess thats what happens when someone pushes my buttons over and over and over again like a sharp blade poking and poking you towards the fiery mesh called the end.

Everything seems to be shrouded in doubt now. For now, i just feel mentally exshausted and i rather not think about the crappy way to end my last proper chinese new year celebration.

Nevertheless, CNY was as expected, cookies, angpao, visits, food and seeing a few familair faces (and many unfamilair ones.)
However, it is my last one i guess, and i might, sorta, maybe miss it.

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 12:54 PM

As a chapter draws a close, you truly appreciate the things you are going to miss
The friends you might be leaving behind but will still be with you.
You appreciate the family that might have caused much aggravation
You'd appreciate the country and land your living on

Then comes the regret,
the regret of the things you didn't do
regret of the people you didn't bond as tighly as you would have liked
regreting the things that shouldn't have been said and the things that shouldn't have happened

but in the end. Its just one chapter of the many. So within the last few months left, you make the best of everything you can, maximizing the things to appreciate and minimizing the things to regret.

I can say for a fact, there are some things that i'm particularly going to miss when i'm in a far-away continent
Chilling in Gadong at Frat. or Excapade or the Mall......... Jis lunches....... Squash at Von's....... Tennis at Nilai Springs..... Supper with the Inti Gang.... Touristing arnd with Americans..... all those msn convo frenzies..... the sleepovers at people's houses and empire...... JIS socials and proms.....pool and dota at INTI....

sometimes life isn't as bad as you think. Cynicism isn't always permenant.
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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 8:42 PM

Heineken Commercials are the Best =P

and my personal favourite

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 10:27 AM

If there was Business Sex Talk....

I'd prob go smething like this

"We did some swift, efficient asset-stripping, carried out the required amount of research and development, then i was to position my product in her niche market. I did my best to satisfy her high demand with as much supply as i could muster. After a period of violently fluctuating market penetration, the bubble finally burst and we sank back, our sales forces completely spent."

hanks to Stephen Clarke for that passage. It's classic =D

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 1:54 AM

Dilbert Comics

 

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 10:15 AM

Human personality always seems flawed. Aspects of ourselves that are abrasive always exist and rough edges that don't read well of others. Yet why are there people, who annoys the crap out of you or someone else, yet has many other pals of their own? Do their pals not see the flaws in character or do they simply just choose to ignore it?

I've known this one particular person... who i shall not menton (cuz he/she/it will get mad at me).... who has got on the nerves of many people i know(myself once or twice)... and gotten into many disagreements and sometimes comes off very strongly (which sometimes isn't a good thing) however, even when he/she/it is gone now, there are always frens by him/her/it. I myself have found him/her/it to be a good fren and will likely stay one eventhough some others might have just found him/her/it too conflictive.
So does that mean he/she/it(i'm gonna call him/her/it bob) is really an abrasive person or is she just misunderstood.

I don't really know, there are things bob does that makes me wonder how good of a character he has yet doesn't he still have those good qualities? Or does he have both and its just that his freidns choose to ignore the bad ones and his enemies the good ones.
I guess that's how it works huh? I've met what..thousands of people now and i've not gotten along with all of them. Yet it's always wierd to see some of these people with a flurry of friends themselves. Then i always ask myself, do those friends not know the true person that i've had the misfortune to deal with? What is his true self anyway, that icy cold deamnor that he dishes out to me or the warming curved smiles he deals to others. Maybe he's just a bastard to some.

I don't really know, it seems strange. Maybe everyone is just bipolar at times.

Where's a psychologist when you need one?
 

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 9:27 AM

The Tempest by William Shakespeare

Our revels now are ended. These our actors,
As i foretolld you, were all spirits and
Are melted into air, into thin air:
And, like the baseless fabric of this vision,
The cloud-capp'd towers, the gorgeous palaces,
The solemn temples, that great globe itself,
Yea , all which it inherit, shall dissolve
And, like this insubstantial pageant play faded,
Leave not a rack behind. We are such stuff
As dreams are made on, and our little life
Is rounded with a sleep.

Lets go back to the basics. Though we seem to ignore this issue, idealism vs materialism, it's always a thought that keeps us pondering. even for a second. Is our consciousness merely a state of the brain, or does mental states hold a larger part of life; a spiritual reality outside of our material one. Maybe i do agree with shakespeare, that the universe is merely an idea, but till things are made clearer... i still continue to wonder.

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 6:07 PM