To belong........

Material possession might be deemed evil and materialistic but sometimes some people hold on to materials becuase thats the only thing they have. For some people, all they've got are the clothes on their back and material possession provides them with relief that they couldn't recieve from other humans.

Sometimes to belong, or merely to feel like you belong can be the most self-satisfying intangible asset to have. Just having a close knit tight group of friends ,it gives you the overwhelming sense of ties to them, and it sorta keeps you grounded, giving a sort of sense of existence in the empowering universe.
Perhaps thats why families are truely important in our lives, because no matter what difficulties you're experiencing with friendship, you've always got them to lean on and in most cases, you always 'sorta' belong in your family.
However, the most disheartening thing is to belong to a group, but eventually break apart and lose that special bond. Only to return to realise that that group has continued their bonds amongst themselves and you're now an odd man out. Then you ask youself, so whose there for you left? Has everyone moved on that youre the only one left behind, still caught up with the non-present. Then do you really question your place in the universe.... are you merely a blank, passing by others that barely brush against your world... as one of my dear friend aptly said before.
Its this moment, you yearn to belong.

As complicated as things can get, that sense of belonging seems totally subjectable. Friends can be merely friends, but whether you feel like you and your friend belongs together is a total different question. (i don't mean this in the lover/romantic sense... but rather belonging to each other in the universe). Two friends who belong to each other can feel in different wats. Whether its that they feel the importance of each other, or that they can relate to each other so well that sometimes it feels like they ARE each other..... when they talk, when they speak, when they look at each other. You feel connected, you feel attached..... though secrets might exist, you prob know they're there for a good reason. Friends like these can be rare or they can be plentiful in one's lifetime, but to find them will be so fufilling... its going to give you a postition in this world, because you know your part of someone elses.

Then theres yet more complications. For of course, we can always lose this attachment with one another. It comes down to whether we move on in our lives with the person in hand, or whether we move on and leave them behind as only our distant memories. I've seen this happen all the time, it happens all the time with everyone everywhere but the most miserable and depressing thing about this is, though friends might have moved on without you, you wouldn't have neccessarily moved on without them. In your mind, they're still part of you but it hurts to know that you, yourself aint part of them anymore.

So how does one move on from this? You could follow their ways, move on ... leaving them behind. But if your a sentmental git like me, you'd prob claw your way back into their life. I like the latter. because i know..... somehow...... someway theres always a chance....

Labels: Philosophical Rantings

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Exclamation_popcorn reflected on life at 8:18 PM